daily dying of she…

do you
not understand
I have to kill
her everyday
the one that
feels hurt
And shame
And anger
I have to will away 
feelings she has 
of want and need 
and abandonment
she has to force 
her eyes closed
sheild her heart from
that which you give another

she 

I

know you are gone
never to return
ever to be
she lives  
a live death
everyday
…and I

in my cruelty
Inconsiderate of she
and careless with me 
give into my demons
give in to self harm
and make her watch
her own death 
as my eyes
my heart
my soul 
remember every
beautiful tattered remnant 
every stunning piece of you

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